1. Plaster my belly
2. Smoke a cigarette
3. Drink alcohol
4. Do drugs (^all the obvious things obviously.)
5. Take a picture every week of how fat I’ve gotten.
6. Eat. All. The. Time.
7. Become a germaphobe.
8. Get involved in a physical fight.
9. Rely on pain meds.
10. Hide my belly.
11. Wish I wasn’t pregnant.
12. Restrain myself from putting on a bikini and going swimming.
13. Let people molest my belly on a daily basis. Not. Gonna. Happen. (Except the father…that’s unavoidable.)
We’ve been trying for a little over a year now. I take prenatal vitamins, not sure if thats the same as folic acid, but I can try some of that too. We’ve had our fingers crossed that maybe the last test was too soon, because I still haven’t gotten my period and I’ve been having some slight cramping…almost like period cramps but without the period.
I don’t mind you asking at all, and I thank you for your thoughts and prayers!
I went and took the ‘official’ pregnancy test…it came back negative. I’m still without a period, and I’m now having slight cramps that feel like period cramps but not as severe. Not really any other symptoms besides that.
I really wish I wouldn’t have gotten my hopes up like I did…I wish I would’ve prepared myself for the worst instead of the best. Maybe then I wouldn’t be quite as sad.
I just want to know whats wrong with me, or if its not me I want to know if it’s Kyle. I don’t want to keep trying and trying if nothing is ever going to happen. I can’t afford to go do all the fancy tests and get pregnant by any other way than having sex and letting my body do it naturally. I just want answers, and I want a baby.




